hmph !
so tired !
am i really changing ?
i felt dat i did change .
alot in fact !
is from bad to worst !
im really trying to change
for the better !
yet i failed ,
once again !
but it seems dat no one cares !
well mayb a few ?
so few dat i dun even knw .
perhaps no one cares abt me anymore .
mayb they dun even notice
dat i changed .
but i tot a few did notice ?
well there is someone who knw .
he told me he knw i changed .
i m touched dat someone notice .
even he said i change for the worst .
but at least he notice .
im nt really dat close with him ,
but he knw i changed .
wad abt my close fwen ?
do they even bother abt me ?
i dun think so .
wad should i do ?
lead me to a path .
the correct pathway .
i really wanted to change
for the better !
not for the worst !
but do anyone cares ?
do they even notice ?
its a massive change but few notice .
perhaps u dun even bother
abt me .
so y shld u care ?
y would u notice ?
idk .
i really needed an answer !
did i really changed ?
or is it dat things
n ppl ard me changed ?
u once told me dat we r
friendsforever
but how long is forever ?
i tot we r friendsforever ?
but everything changed .
we found new fwens ,
n we changed .
so did our friendship .
i really hope dat ,
time would turn backward !
let us be back to the past .
which is less confusing .
but i knw its impossible .
everything changed .
its surprising dat
from stranger ,
we became fwen ,
n from fwen
we became best fwen .
but its saddeding dat
from best fwen ,
we became normal fwen ,
n nw we r like total stranger .
mayb u have forgotten hu m i .
or dun even knw dat i exsist .
but u r always my fwen !
my best fwen !
the one hu brought me
so much joy n laughter .
nw dat we r drifting apart ,
i duno if u r still e old u .
or had u changed ?
to '040409' :
actually all i needed
is just a pair of ear .
a pair of listening ear .
to share my sorrowful moment ,
but each i i called U
u told me u r busy .
n promise to call me back .
but u didnt .
nt once did u call back .
but yet i waited n waited
for ur call .
to my disappointment ,
u nv call back .
any idea how sad m i ?
i held onto my phone tight
fearing dat when u called back
i did nt picked up ur calls .
sometimes ,
i held onto my phone to slp .
hoping dat a sudden vibration
would wake me up .
but even if thr is ,
it isnt from u .
its from others .
u gave me hope ,
yet u destory it .
im tired of waiting .
i will nt disturb u anymore .
if u needed someone to talk to ,
i will always be thr for u .
uoyevoli .
n i really mean it .
(i think some knw hu im refering to)
i'm xiaowen aka wenzii